Psalm 23:1-3 – “The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.” (NIV)
Christmas Eve was tough, but I think that New Years Eve was as tough, or even more. Christmas Eve was the one year anniversary of Terry going home to be with our Father. The flood of emotions, the memories, and the season that we celebrate His birth made for some pretty emotional moments. But, as much as Christmas Eve was tough, New Years Eve was even more. On Christmas Eve, I could draw upon the celebration of the season, and the fellowship of my family (kids, grands, and more). New Years Eve was very empty for me. Nothing to do, nothing to celebrate, nothing to take my mind off of the loneliness.
In fact, I am somewhat overdue to post on this blog. Why is that? I can attribute some of that to things that have been happening while being there for my family. I can attribute some to my push to try new things (Cooking classes, fellowshipping with old and new friends, doing the best I can in the job that I have, reaching out to help “Re-Impact” in the lives of others), and more. I can attribute a lot of it to me/today. Each day is becoming better, and better. Each day, I am seeking more from God; direction, love, caring, closeness, a light unto my path. So, it’s been me, trying to discern.
During my walks, I use the opportunity to listen to podcasts, and to pray/talk with God. It was during this morning that I realized that everything works according to His purpose. And, perhaps, this time in the past week and half, I needed that time to realize how I can become better, and refreshed.
From Psalm 23:
- God is with me, I lack nothing. Even though I may feel lonely, God is still there. In fact, when I am really, really lonely, He is really, really there.
- There are times that He works things out so that I can lie down (in His green pastures). I may lie down on my bed and cry, I may sit in my chair and wonder what is really going on, I may spend a few days away from doing things that I think I should be doing (He knows better).
- If I allow Him, these times will result in a refreshing that I cannot get any way else.
- If I allow Him, these times will will help me draw closer to Him to follow the right path, the path that He has set out before me.
So, even though I have been absent from these writings, God has been there, with me, all along. In fact, I can honestly say that He has guided me to some pretty uplifting experiences. Experiences that (I believe) will help me become better, stronger, and my path in this new journey will be one that is fulfilling and rewarding.
If you are so inclined, think about what Today is to you.
- Are you being given the opportunity to lie down, and receive refreshing?
- Is it time to reflect on where you are and where you are going?
- How do you use this time of quietness to find the right path for you?
And, don’t forget – “Grief is the internal part of loss, how we feel. The internal work of grief is a process, a journey. It does not end on a certain day or date. It is as individual as each of us. Grief is real because loss is real. Each grief has its own imprint, as distinctive and as unique as the person we lost. The pain of loss is so intense, so heartbreaking, because in loving we deeply connect with another human being, and grief is the reflection of the connection that has been lost.”
God Bless you, I will continue to pray for you.